So it’s a Monday and I’ve done really well with my meal plan. I packed myself two salads with plenty of protein just like Kathleen recommended. I was running a bit late this morning so I didn’t have a shake, I had some oats when I arrived at work.
I need to work on my morning motivation and making sure I get out of bed to do those essential morning tasks. At this stage I keep sleeping in and not ticking off some of the helpful weight loss things like having lemon in water first thing.
I feel like I keep stopping myself from making real progress. Like I feel that leaving this comfortable zone brings on fear and I instinctively change my course. I think stress is one of my biggest hurdles too. I put too much on my plate and then I literately put too much on my plate to try and calm myself down.
Annnnnyway, time to make some dinner and do some more work. I will pack some lunch for tomorrow though!
Since starting this blog in 2012 I have somehow managed to lose 10kgs only to gain it right back. I’m going to be completely honest with you and myself here. I now weigh 129kgs and I’m the biggest I’ve ever been. I am not proud that I have let this happen. I have been in denial for the last year, it wasn’t until I tried on some clothes from last summer that I could really see how much bigger I am.
But this blog isn’t about hate or shaming. It’s about moving forward and putting plans into place, its about taking action and becoming the person I want to be. We all have to start somewhere, and this is where I am right now.
So a quick recap on my weekly life to give you an idea of how I’m going to get things done, as well as where I need to improve.
I work full time (8.30am to 5pm) Monday to Friday. I own an online store that I manage in the evenings and on weekends. I also do volunteer work for a charity which usually requires 5 to 15 hours of my time a month.
I am an emotional binge eater and I generally eat larger portions of food then I need to at meal times. So I know my faults, I need to come up with some ways to change these bad habits.
Some of the things I have already put in place to help me make some changes is to see a health and wellness coach once a week. In these meetings we go over what I need help with, my meal plans, anything that I need to talk about to help me stay on track really.
I need this change more than anything else right now, and it’s what I want. I know it’s going to be hard, very different, tasking, annoying at times, and more often than not exhausting, but also and most importantly – rewarding. By giving myself a short time to get the basics down I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.