Category Archives: Below 100kg Milestone

Week 4 (6 Week Challenge)

We buried my Nan today. As you can imagine it’s been a hard time for my entire family, especially my mum. She has been so amazing strong through this whole thing. Nan was diagnosed with Leukemia about 4 years ago, her Doctors said she had anywhere from 12 month to possibly 5 years.

Nan had been experiencing terrible back pain before the end. She had been into Hospital twice before they transferred her to palliative care. There were people visiting with her everyday, the Nurses would come in surprised and comment that it was like the weekend in there with so many visitors. She was like a second mum to me and I will miss her dearly.

It’s been hard to think about much else this week. I’ve not had a huge appetite and I’ve done some walking but nothing to really help the cause.

It feels like life has been suspended, like everything is hanging up in the air. It’s been weird going to work and being asked to do things, it feels like they should all stop because someone I love is no longer with me, she is suspended and we all need to stop moving forward. Its an odd feeling that’s for sure.

My Nan was on a strict diet ever since she was in her late 20s due to a slight liver overload. When she started to feel really sick the Doctors had no idea what was wrong. It wasn’t until she saw a Naturopath that he told her she was intolerant to a number of foods simply because her liver couldn’t cope. She stopped having wheat (gluten), dairy, yeast, chocolate, and refined sugar all so that she could feel normal and healthy. I want her discipline, her strength, her kindness, and warmth. I want to be able to look back on my life as I’m sure she did hers and know that I did everything I could to take care of myself and my loved ones.

So next week I’m going to spend time taking care of everyone, as well as myself. I will be doing some cooking for Pa, and getting things running smoothly at home as much as possible.


Week 3 (6 Week Challenge)

Last Week in review:

I had a really good time over my long weekend, my only worry is the amount of money I spent! I was healthy with means, mostly salads and healthy protein packed breakfasts.

I did forget to take my food journal away with me but given the activities I did each day I can easily remember what I ate each day – so that is now up-to-date! I have been making some great progress on my steps challenge too, making 8,000 a day! I know 10,000 is the goal but given I was doing between 2,000 and 4,000 each day this is major progress. Yay!

Since getting back I’ve been to an evening event at work, a charity meeting, and tomorrow I’m helping out with a charity dinner as well as the color run on Sunday!

Phew! Wish me luck.

What I’ll focus on this week:

Given I was on leave for a big chunk of my week my morning routine has really slipped and I’m lucky to be getting up at 7am. Time to implement my 15 minute plan again and start waking up earlier to fit in my important plans.

With such a busy weekend I need to make sure I make time to prepare my food for the week at some stage, otherwise I will give in to buying my lunches which can be costly on my wallet and body!

Lastly water is going to play a huge role this week as I move up from 2 Litres a day to 2.5. This is very necessary given that summer is on its way and I want to get this weight moving.

Choose a Shoe


I have been pretty lucky with my feet. They have carried me around all my life and I have never had any real problems. My single complaint is that they aren’t a great shape for fancy shoes. My feet are broad across the toe which means most strapy shoes don’t fit, I call them duck feet.

BUT Runners are something that do fit and I find it easy to find good ones. I’ve been wanting to get into running so I know I am going to need some good shoes for that. I wouldn’t mind trying hiking as well. I found this great guide for choosing the right shoe for the activity you want to do!

The happiest 5k in the world

That’s right. This unfit bunny is going to be walking her way through the colour run this November! Given this challenge is only 6 weeks away I’m kinda nervous…

I know I can do it, it’s really not all that far. The part that is worrying me is that I’ll need to still go to work the next day! I want to make sure I train enough that I’m not going to want to pass out the next day.

So here are some things I have found out about doing my first 5k thanks to

1) You should practice running outside. It’s fine to do some of your training on the treadmill, but make sure that you also do some runs outside. You use different muscles when you run outdoors so, if you run exclusively on a treadmill running, you may have a hard time adjusting to a different surface during the race. While there are some benefits of treadmill running, doing some of your miles outside will help get you more physically and mentally prepared for the race.

2) You don’t need to carbo-load for a 5K. Some people hear about runners eating lots of carbs before a big race and they think it applies before running any race. You really only need extra carbs if you’re running a longer distance race such as a half or full marathon. If you’re running a 5K, you don’t need to load up on carbs the day before the race. Just eat what you would normally eat the day before the race, but try to avoid foods fatty or greasy foods that might lead to gastrointestinal issues.

3) You won’t get disqualified for walking. Some beginners worry about having to take a walk break during a race because they think they’ll look or feel like a failure. They equate waking with throwing in the towel. There’s no shame in taking a walking break! In fact, using a run/walk approach can be a very smart race strategy because it may help you avoid the muscle fatigue that often happens towards the end of races. Some race participants find that taking short walk breaks actually helps them achieve an overall faster race pace than if they tried to run the entire distance.


Too much to do!

Everything feels like it has its own level of chaos at the moment. Nothing is tidy or organised and I lack the energy and motivation to do anything about it. But these are just emotions and excuses. If we had to wait for the perfect conditions (everything tidy and organised, everything planned out perfectly, great weather and your best time of day) we would never get anything done.

I managed to get up earlier today and get ready without too many problems. It’s daylight savings now and that hour has really thrown me. I get into the swing of it pretty quickly its just the initial shock my body seems to feel.

I keep feeling hopeless and sad. Its just easier to blame a situation then myself. Ok enough complaining. Time for a walk and some water.



All the feelings

I’ve never known what it’s like to be slim. I’ve always been at least 20% heavier then my peers at any given age. I’m sure there was a time when I wasn’t overweight, I do have some pictures of my 6 year old self and I looked like other kids my age. But I’ve always had fat hands, my fingers like little sausages.

I wonder if that is some of the reason I find it so difficult to lose weight? I’m so use to being overweight that I sabotage myself at every turn, telling myself that I’m being mean if I deny myself the huge servings and take away that my mind tells me I’m craving.

I have thought about seeing a psychologist to help me figure out why I keep doing this to myself. Maybe they can explain it to me and I can fit it.

I read about other people that manage to lose their weight and how they did it. They say to eat better, exercise, surround yourself with fit people so that they inspire you to do the same. But in my experience these people are usually jerks to people in my situation. I want to surround myself with comrades, people in the same situation as me, fighting the same battles, feeling the same doubts.

I find books and movies inspiring. Reading about other people who were in the same position as me rising up and beating the odds to get super fit and healthy. Movies that have people training in new skills and kicking butt. They inspire me.


Finding the right fit and making changes

Good nutrition, more movement, better wellness. These things are all good things. But there isn’t currently much going on in those areas of my life at the moment.

I want to be able to get up each day and know I can immediately cross some of these things off my list. So that I can start the day right with the right mindset, fuel, and energy.

So I’m playing with the idea of a morning routine that is going to set me up for a great day, and help me be the person I know I am deep down. I know I need to be realistic, I’m not going to be able to fit everything into my mornings and suddenly be this different person. But slowly getting up earlier and small steps like that are going to be the way to shift my current habits.

What do I want to eventually fit into my mornings?

5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea

10mins A shower

20mins Getting dressed and ready for work

45mins A decent walk, jog, run

20mins Breakfast

30mins of reading

30mins Writing a blog post

Total time – 2 hours and 45 minutes


Wake up at 5 to get these things in each day. Going from getting up at 7am to 5am is no easy feat. Luckily I have chosen a great time of year to do this (Spring with Summer on the day – warm mornings make it easy to get out of bed!). I’ll take it one week at a time, getting up just 15 minutes earlier each week.


Week 1 – wake up and get up at 6.45am (I will have 1 hour before I need to leave for work)
Week 2 – wake up and get up at 6.30am (1 hour and 15 mins)
Week 3 – wake up and get up at 6.15am (1 hour and 30 mins)
Week 4 – wake up and get up at 6.00am (1 hour and 45 mins)
Week 5 – wake up and get up at 5.45am (2 hours)
Week 6 – wake up and get up at 5.30am (2 hours and 15 mins)
Week 7 – wake up and get up at 5.15am (2 hour and 30 mins)
Week 8 – wake up and get up at 5.00am (I will have 2 hours and 45 minutes)

The First thing I’ll do is use the bathroom then have a cup of herbal tea to start digestion. If I’m at home I have to leave for work by 7.45am to get there on time. So in those first few weeks I’ll add my new routine in slowly, seeing that I already get up at 7 and manage to fit in getting ready, a shower, and breakfast, I need to focus on adding in the other things. It could be good to build some up, like the exercise and reading. I can start it as 10mins of one and then as I get up earlier I can add in the other and build more time into each as the weeks go by. This is starting to feel like a good plan to me!

So here is the basic plan.

Week 1 – wake up and get up at 6.45am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 10 mins shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast. (total: 1 hour)

Week 2 – wake up and get up at 6.30am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 15 min walk, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast. (total: 1 hour 15 mins)

Week 3 – wake up and get up at 6.15am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 15 min walk, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast 15 mins reading. (total: 1 hour 30 mins)

Week 4 – wake up and get up at 6.00am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 30 min walk, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast, 15 mins reading. (total: 1 hour 45 mins)

Week 5 – wake up and get up at 5.45am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 30 min walk, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast, 30 mins reading. (total: 2 hours)

Week 6 – wake up and get up at 5.30am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 45 min walk, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast, 30 mins reading. (total: 2 hours and 15 minutes)

Week 7 – wake up and get up at 5.15am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 45 min walk, 15 min Blogging, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast, 30 mins reading. (total: 2 hours and 30 minutes)

Week 8 – wake up and get up at 5.00am: 5 to 10 minutes Bathroom and herbal tea, 45 min walk, 30 min Blogging, 10 min shower, 20 mins Getting dressed and ready for work, 20 mins Breakfast, 30 mins reading. (total: 2 hours and 45 minutes)

Ok so its a more detailed plan then I said, but nutting out the finer details can help keep me on track so that’s what I’ll do!


A day like any other day

So it’s a Monday and I’ve done really well with my meal plan. I packed myself two salads with plenty of protein just like Kathleen recommended. I was running a bit late this morning so I didn’t have a shake, I had some oats when I arrived at work.

I need to work on my morning motivation and making sure I get out of bed to do those essential morning tasks. At this stage I keep sleeping in and not ticking off some of the helpful weight loss things like having lemon in water first thing.

I feel like I keep stopping myself from making real progress. Like I feel that leaving this comfortable zone brings on fear and I instinctively change my course. I think stress is one of my biggest hurdles too. I put too much on my plate and then I literately put too much on my plate to try and calm myself down.

Annnnnyway, time to make some dinner and do some more work. I will pack some lunch for tomorrow though!

Pre-Rocktober Month Preparations

Since starting this blog in 2012 I have somehow managed to lose 10kgs only to gain it right back. I’m going to be completely honest with you and myself here. I now weigh 129kgs and I’m the biggest I’ve ever been. I am not proud that I have let this happen. I have been in denial for the last year, it wasn’t until I tried on some clothes from last summer that I could really see how much bigger I am.

But this blog isn’t about hate or shaming. It’s about moving forward and putting plans into place, its about taking action and becoming the person I want to be. We all have to start somewhere, and this is where I am right now.

So a quick recap on my weekly life to give you an idea of how I’m going to get things done, as well as where I need to improve.

I work full time (8.30am to 5pm) Monday to Friday. I own an online store that I manage in the evenings and on weekends. I also do volunteer work for a charity which usually requires 5 to 15 hours of my time a month.

I am an emotional binge eater and I generally eat larger portions of food then I need to at meal times. So I know my faults, I need to come up with some ways to change these bad habits.

Some of the things I have already put in place to help me make some changes is to see a health and wellness coach once a week. In these meetings we go over what I need help with, my meal plans, anything that I need to talk about to help me stay on track really.

I need this change more than anything else right now, and it’s what I want. I know it’s going to be hard, very different, tasking, annoying at times, and more often than not exhausting, but also and most importantly – rewarding. By giving myself a short time to get the basics down I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.