Category Archives: Motivation

Meeting, measuring, and falling

So I was suppose to meet with my wellness coach last night for a catch up, weigh in, and get measured. BUT she was running late and missed our appointment time so that was that. I was a bit glad as I know my numbers wouldn’t have been great this time, but it was also disappointing because I know I’ve done better so I was interested to see where I was up to.

I ate a lot of junk over the weekend, on Sunday I felt so crap I made myself drink loads of water and I went out and got some tea to inspire me to drink it instead of bad stuff. I have managed to cut out the soft drink (again) but for some reason I just had to have burgers on the weekend.

I’m headed on holiday as of Sunday and I’m excited to make some more progress on my walking and eating right. Given I wont have a car I’ll have to walk more. In the past I have always lost weight while on holiday so lets hope I keep that up!

Anyway I just wanted to check in and let you know what’s been going on.

Peace out.

Average

I want my life to be extraordinary. I want to look back with awe and pride for how I lived my amazing life.

Lately I feel so average. Sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep, work. Weekends have even become a blur of sleep, a few catch ups, and preparing for the week ahead. Is it because I’m working for someone else? I’m helping them achieve their goals, spending more then 40 hours a week at a desk never pushing myself, never taking charge of my life.

Do I have what it takes to quit? To create another path for myself?

And then I remember bills, hopes and dreams that rely on this steady income. Even considering these things, I don’t want to look back at my life and regret not taking that step.

Taking the time and making the effort to make one of my biggest dreams come true (reaching my goal weight) is making me want to make more of my dreams come true. BUT one thing at a time. The worst thing I can do is take on too much now and lose sight of my main goal for 2015.

But I can still dream…

 

 

 

 

 

 

This year its a no-brainer!

I’m a huge fan of stationary. The better I can plan and organise a project the easier it is to pull off, not to mention how organised it makes me feel. So why would I treat my weight loss goals any differently?

20150105_082759I splurged over the new year break and bought myself a new diary for 2015. I already have one for organising my general appointments and reminders, but to really take control of the year I wanted a diary I can write in every day, take everywhere as its not too big or bulky, where I can track what I’m eating, how many steps I get done each day, how much water I drank, how I’m feeling – all of that.

I find it too personal to put this stuff in my appointment diary as other people see that when I’m booking things in. This is for my eyes only!

I have added colourful tabs along the top that mark out the half way point, and end of each month so I can clearly see how much further I have to go before my next deadline. I also found this neat pencil case that slips over the cover of my book and holds my pens. No more excuses not to do my food entries because I don’t have a pen handy. I also use planning as a way to avoid the kitchen and snacking so being able to have this with me is really key.

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So happy with this buy! It has really been keeping me on track!!

Too much feasting for my liking!

Why is it, at Christmas, I feel the need to eat until I feel so full I’m going to burst? Is it because the food is there? Is it because that’s what I have always done? Is it because I love food and its so tasty? Is it because I have a big family and this is the one time I could have whatever I want and as much as I like?

Honestly I think it is a mixture of all of these reasons. There are a number of delicious things to eat and I have 3 times what anyone would normally have. Not only that but its usually lunch AND dinner. No wonder I put on weight over Christmas. But not this year!

This year I’m having a plate like this:

Well it wont look exactly like that, but that is the measurement method I’ve been working with. I need to make sure I don’t snack outside of meals and if I do its health and only because I am genuinely hungry. I’m wearing jeans today. My only pare of jeans and they feel tight and uncomfortable. I’m stressing because I know where I’m headed and I can’t seem to make myself care enough to stop. I just keep sitting on my ass and eating whatever I like.

But that isn’t who I am, and I want who I really am to shine through to the outside, not be covered up with weight. With Christmas comes a new year and this year is going to be the year I publish my before and after photos. This year I’m going to take charge and make my dream come true. I know I will stumble, you can’t reach 28 and not know you will fail, but I know I will get back up and make this happen.

Here’s to my best year yet!

A fresh start

We all start out with the best intentions. We know what we want and what we need to do… and then life happens. We get caught up in day to day living and we forget our big plans and what we really want.

This blog is going to remind me daily of what it is I want from this life. No more “I’ll start tomorrow”‘s, this is my time to take control of my body and really make some changes.

I want to get crazy fit. I want to work my ass off, literally. I want to be able to run marathons and lift impressive weights. I want to be able to go on backpacking holidays and know I can hike for miles carrying my bag without passing out. I want to be able to walk into any store and know they will have my size. I want to feel confident that I can do what I need to in any situation because my body and mind are prepared.

So there it is, I’m looking for a fresh start and it’s starting today. Right now, this minute. It doesn’t need to be a Monday, a new month, or the start of a new year. I’ve started.

I am the CEO of my own body, and I can eat or not eat whatever I want. I can move when I want and how I want. It’s all up to me. 

Shut up voice of doubt, I can and I will!

believe

 

For a moment there the doubt started to sneak in. That thought that maybe I should just stay as I am because I know how to be this way, I know what to expect from other people and I should just accept myself as I am anyway. I could never look like those women, toned fit and healthy, its just too far to go.

Yes its easier to stay the same, that is why I have failed so many times before. That is why so many other people have given up, or never tried.

I do accepts myself, I appreciate my strength of character and my ability to care about others. I know I am a good friend, sister, and girlfriend. I accept that I am not naturally skinny, and that I can’t eat anything I want and be healthy.

I need this change. I want it. I want the person I am inside to shine through to the outside. I don’t want to be judged poorly because of my weight. The voice of doubt has no place here any more. I am on the right road and it will get me to where I want to be. It will be hard, it will take time, and it will change parts of me. I have spent my life being overweight and I’ve had enough of that. Losing weight and getting fit will not change the fun, silly, happy, caring person that I am. Losing weight will give me the confidence to do more, see more, and experience more for a lot longer than I would have otherwise given my unhealthy state. It is all good change.

So, voice of doubt, you can come here with your smarmy words and encourage me to give up, fall into my old habits, and sit around crying about how crap my life is. You can tell me about the easy road, fatty foods, watching tv, and how I’m not worth it, I don’t deserve to be happy, and I can’t do it.

But I can’t hear you. I believe I can, and I will.